My dad is 90 today - I'm not allowed to be with him.

Howard Alder Smith in Swansea is 90 today and I'm trapped in Northumberland, kept away from him.

Emotions are eating me up and twist into anger and frustration with this imprisonment, lock-down, this being controlled way of life that I hate so much.

I need to phone him and say happy birthday, but not feeling strong enough yet.

I'm going outside to look into the fog for a while before picking up my phone.

Happy birthday dad X